Saturday, March 21, 2015

The Space Between

They say the first to go is the memory. Or is it smell? Perhaps it is eyesight. Well, whatever it is, I'm sure the first to go are the "days." All the days you wish to fill with your heart's desire. Days, they come and go so quickly, and before you know it, three years will pass in a blink of an eye. As times passes quickly, do you recall the days? The smell? The sights? The seasons?

Unbelievable how years have gone by since we last met. It's time to reintroduce myself, I suppose, since I've changed a bit. I'm sure you have, too. Perhaps three years ago, you had no interest in what I have to say, this crazy little blog thing, or enough time in your life to surf the web mindlessly enough to stumble upon me. Change is good.

Not long after my last post, I took a hiatus from life. That's how I will define it and I'm sure you will speculate what I mean by that. It doesn't matter, really. It was a break. In many ways, in all forms, and in every capacity. As with any break, there is healing and regrowth. Sometimes, a break can weaken a structure. But to create a break requires strength. 

So, I fast forward from then to now, because now, I need to pick up where I left off. Like a time warp or celestial worm hole, the space in-between, the gray matter or black space, if left to decipher, will only send one into a Hawkings-like ramble. Now, is all that we have.

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Now, is the middle of March and the beginning of Spring. It is this time each year that I am reminded of the intense energy of the Earth. Winter, with its bitter cold and fury has imbedded itself in the ground, frozen time in the still waters, and forced the creatures of the earth from its path. She breaths pure ice into our lungs and frosts our teeth as we cringe from her whipping winds that freeze the flowing water in our veins. She surrounds us with her cool beauty of frozen waterfalls and iced over walkways. She cares not that our soft warm bodies walk among her hollowed branched forests and along the gusting paths of drift and pile. We forge through what cities we have created, yet she is merciless with navigating herself into our world. She commands us through pelting our backs with her sleet and ice; punishing us for not respecting her or reminding us of her strength, one is not sure but only wishes for the release of her asphyxiating grip.


Promises are made by Spring of life to come, but Winter overcasts those glimpses of hope. Unavoidably and eventually, there must be change. Winter must brake loose her grip and the regrowth of Spring will be upon us. What Winter has not destroyed in her path, what victims she has not made her own, will awake in the sunshine. All of Spring's treasures lay just beneath the surface or on the tailwinds of Winter. Winter, our very own black hole or undefined gray matter or black space: necessary, cruel, and misunderstood. She removes the positive life energy from the elements that make life thrive. But yet, they were there all along, somewhere in-between the fallen leaves of Autumn and the sprouts of flowers bursting through the snow. Spring emerges, not with a gentleman's touch, but rather, with the same drive for life, from deep within us that forces us to gasp for breath, that drives our us to hunt when we hunger, and the urgency to pursue our love, passions, and desires. It is with that strength, that Spring breaks the long shadows of Winter so a new life may begin again.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Tree Oh Six

Tree Oh Six. It's not just the number on my house or a way to express my address in Heynabonics. It is a new start in: life, health, and happiness. 


Our New Home 
To move into our new home, we went through quite the ordeal. I don't think I can adequately recommend anyone buy or sell their home right now. I can go on-and-on about how awful the housing market is, how you will end up losing money, and how the paperwork for getting a loan is harder than running a marathon. If I had the choice today, I'd rather run a marathon in the desert, barefoot, than go through that ever again.


It must be said, I never felt more stress in my entire life. I tried my best to not let my life suffer too much, but the stress was out of control. One area of my life I completely neglected was my health. During this whole process, I completely stopped juicing. In March, actually ended up getting pneumonia with a sinus infection which lasted until June. I not only ate very unhealthy foods, I ate fast food take-out regularly. I could tell you about the mashed potato incident at KFC but I am sure there is a very traumatized KFC worker out there somewhere who could give you the details. Ultimately, I put on so much weight and my skin became so gross. On top of this, I developed a knot in my back about the size of a golf ball that I am still trying to get out. 


So was all of this stress worth it? I question that sometimes. The only thing I can do now is really reap the benefits of my new home and enjoy every square inch of it! I absolutely love it for some many reasons. But, the number one reason why I love it is because the former owners built raised garden beds!!


Welcome to 306


Summers' Garden
We were in the house exactly 14 days when I told Jonny that we were going to put in the garden. We had so many boxes to unpack and we didn't even have curtains to hang, but I wanted to prepare for reversing the stress in my body. After planting our garden in grueling 92 degree heat, I cashed in my birthday gift-certificate for a hot stone massage. Ahh. Well needed.


And now, the first step - again- towards a juicing lifestyle. Earlier this morning I re-read my blog entries from my other juicing experiences. Reading them was like a surreal out-of-body experience. Did I really feel that good about myself? Did I really feel that healthy? Did the weight really seem to melt off? I honestly thought I was joking. 


But it was true. It was true then and it is true now. It's just that I am so far removed from the person I enjoyed being that  I have to work extra hard to get back there. Another thing I noticed from my old blogs, that is wasn't easy then either. 


So, here's to a new home, a new life, and returning back to the place I started -- healthy and happy. 





Monday, March 5, 2012

Oh Dear

Dear former juicing self--


I doubt that you will recognize me, but I used to be the girl who juiced religiously. You might not believe who I have become, but I have fallen so far from my beloved juicing habits. What happened? How did I ever come to this? How will I ever be the person I once was?


It all began with jury duty. Now, I am not one to blame my life on certain events or situations, but a couple of weeks ago, my life and stress level went into overdrive. While on jury duty, the judge bought us lunch and we had many very nice meals. That was the beginning. After my service was complete, then came the game of playing catch up with my life. I had piles of papers to correct (at school), a house to be cleaned, laundry to be done, tickets to issue (at the box office), interview potential counselors (at camp), grad school, and yes...a new puppy who had surgery. I think I forgot to mention that we also sold our house and now only have 40 days to find a place to live. This all happened in 10 days. 


After one major meltdown I found comfort in some of my closest friends; Gertrude Hawk, Samario's, and Cara Mia's. 


Last night, I was so disgusted by my recent eating habits, I made a glass of fresh orange juice. It tasted to good and pure that I don't think that I can ever let myself get to this point of stress again. 


So, I am sure you have been here too. This is the moment where you look at yourself in the mirror and say, "Common, you can do it. I know it's not easy but you did it before and you will feel much better." It is also a bit comforting to know, that when you say this to yourself, you mean it, and you know it is true. 


I'm not perfect, and I don't expect anyone in my life to be. I don't expect myself to only drink juice for the rest of my life. But what I do expect, is to pull myself up once I fall, and get back in gear. Feeling stress is bad enough, but coupling stress with unhealthy foods just leads to a very unhealthy life and body. My body is my temple and I should let the stress out and healthy goodness back in. 


See you soon, juicing self. I've missed you.


Love,
Michelle 

Sunday, January 15, 2012

The Goodness Continues

I knew my mind could make it to day 15, but at times, I wasn't sure about my body.

Yes, there were times I could murder a tray of pizza, but, let's face it. It takes time to adjust to any new routine. I am here on day 15 and I am 7 pounds lighter. My skin looks so fresh and healthy. My breath is not sticky and gross. I feel like my insides went through the car wash and are sparkling clean. Many people I work with are sick, and other than a quick case of pink eye, I have never felt healthier! 

The key to juicing is just to keep doing it. I have decided to extend my cleanse until the end of January. I am going to keep going forward in 2 -4 week segments. Juicing is not a diet for me, it is a lifestyle. The alternative, for me, is to be fat, sick, and nearly dead.
My Great-Grandmother's Juicer (Little Nana)
Last night I was a little hungry after dinner. I did not feel like messing up my juicer for a small glass of juice. I decided to break out my grandmother's juicer. Pressing the juice by hand and drinking the juice reminded me of all the days my dad and I would make juice together. During the middle of winter, he would bring home large bags of oranges or grapefruit. We would spend the mornings juicing our fresh fruit from Florida waiting for the sweet reward. 

After all of the recent reports on what actually is in your orange juice, from concentrate or not, I am so thankful that my body was raised on goodness. While other kids were drinking SunnyD and Tang, my dad and grandmother were using it to clean the dishwasher. Don't believe me? Read HERE

*Update- my father called to tell me that my juicer actually belonged to my great-grandmother, Little Nana Leggat. I guess juicing really is in the family! Let the love of goodness continue. 

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Juicing Side Effects May Include:

It is the dawn of Day 7 of my New Year's Resolution. Before I begin, I ask you, how well are you doing on your resolution? Did you join the gym? Did you exercise yet? Have you been kinder to your neighbor? Did you scale back your family budget? Did you learn to say "no" to your child, boss, or spouse? I believe we all start the new year with good intentions and then fall quickly back into our former-less admirable- selves. Not this girl.


I have had 7 days of juice and clean food. When I try to explain to others what I am doing, I am always greeted with a furrow of the brow and and question; usually something like, "So, all you eat all day is that juice?" or "Don't you eat real food?" I love it. While in the lunchroom, someone might say, "That can't be healthy for you?" --as the questioner is munching on a sugary snack or a leftover casserole. I guess we all have our own interpretations as to what is or is not healthy. For me, this lifestyle works.


Today, instead of listing my juicing recipes, I thought I would tell you some of my "side effects" from juicing from the past few days.
  • Detox headache - around day 2 I had a very annoying, hangover like, headache. 
  • Bloat- all of the badness leaving my body
  • "The runs" - yes, literally from my couch to the bathroom- on day 2/3
  • Hunger - not consuming enough juice, smelling food. (add jealousy)
  • Clean palate - I can taste everything clearly. I didn't realize my palate was to dirty! That slimy, gross, sticky breath, "I need a mint" feeling is gone. 
  • Vision- my eyes seem to be focusing better and more quickly
  • Calmness - No more afternoon sugar crash or jittery feelings. Constant energy
  • Clarity - Brain fog is clearing.
  • Awareness - time, relationships, environment, and self. This is difficult to explain but the juice has made me understand that the health of my body does not just include the food I eat, but everything that goes into it: how I spend my time, having meaningful friendships, positive conversation, location is everything, and taking care of myself is a priority. 
The most important lesson learned so far is that I have let my life get in the way of taking care of myself. No matter what your resolution is, if you have not started your resolution yet, start today. Try your new life for 1 week and then let me know how it turned out. You just might find that you like the New You.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Hunger Games

There is no way to describe Day 3 of juicing other than "detoxing." Last night I had a pretty annoying headache. Today, for the most part, was good, other than feeling a bit tired. Hopefully tomorrow will bring a renewed sense of energy.

Tomorrow's breakfast
I started today off with my Morning Goodness, the same recipe as yesterday but I added some mango. Delish! I also had the same juice for my lunch. My morning routine has improved and I am getting pretty good at ironing out this new schedule. 

Here is my line up for tomorrow morning.

As you can see, a lot of food goes into each juice. 

7 small apples (or 4 regular)
2 small cucumbers (or 1 regular)
2 romaine 
2 oranges
4 stalks celery 

The interesting thing about juicing is that you never need to feel like you are hungry. Once you feel the hunger, drink some juice or have some veggie/fruit snacks. Drink as much as you want! 

Joe Cross and Reboot your Life was featured on the Williams-Sonoma website. 

Check it out HERE

The new page is filled with recipes and video tutorials. The site does seem to be crashing a bit, perhaps because of the heavy online traffic from other people starting to juice as their resolution! 

Monday, January 2, 2012

I'd juice in the morning

"Don't mess with my morning routine." I think that was my response to Jonny's suggestion to buying a house with one full bathroom. My morning routine is sacred. Don't mess with it.
Wake-bathroom-teeth-shower-makeup-hair-coffee/dogs/banana.

I have been performing this way for years, and my system is down to a science.

Enter juicing.

Ah@$nalkh!!!***##&!*!

Juicing after-school is a cinch. I can choose my veggies or fruit, leisurely chop, and relax in my big cozy chair as I sip the goodness. Juicing during the summer is even better - no schedule, no hunger! I can juice whenever. Juicing with a job - not so fun.

I am working on creating a better morning routine to get the freshest juice possible. Although I can make my juice the night before, sometimes I like to make a large batch in the morning for my breakfast and lunch.

Here are some Juice Routine-Buster tips:

  • Pick out your ingredients the night before
  • Chop and peel anything that needs it
  • Put everything on 1 plate or in a big bowl so you do not have to keep going back into the fridge
  • Have your clean juice cup near your juicer 
  • Put the bag in the reserve tank so clean up is easy
  • Put a dry towel on the counter so when you wash the juicer, you can just set the clean parts out to air dry 
I timed myself with this process this morning. It took about 9 min. in total. If I can avoid hitting the snooze button, I will have fresh juice every morning. 

Day 2 Juice Recipes

Morning Goodness
2 grapefruits
2 oranges
1 banana
4-5 strawberries 

Yum. 


Green Grass
2 apples
2 long carrots
1 large handful kale
2 small red potatoes

Tastes like I licked a lawnmower, but not offensive. Maybe skip potatoes next time and add another apple.